Well today has been day 2 of crying.... I think it is a little bit of everything coming together and not the way I want it. I am not happy at my job and with that being said I would give anything to be home with McCoy. I thought it would get easier the more I was away from him but that has not happened. It has gotten extremely hard to think about him doing new things everyday and I do not get to see them first. I really do try and be positive but I am in a funk right now.
I do not feel like I get to see Matt as much as I want and football and good weather for golf are to blame for that. He is so busy with work and when he gets home somehow time flies and it is time to start it all over again.
I am also tired all of the time. I am sure it is a combination of work and still getting up in the middle of the night to feed McCoy. He sometimes gets up 2 times just depending. I think I have been getting around 5 hours of sleep... and that is not good enough for me. As I type this I need to be sleeping because McCoy will be eating soon.
10 more weeks until a school break :(
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I hate this post...I'm sorry :(
ReplyDeleteAt least he's healthy and happy...even if you're not...I'm coming down tomorrow!!
Not a fan of it either babe!! If I could change the fact of you having to work I definitely would!! I can change the fact about playing golf though....maybe :) I Love you
ReplyDeleteIt's still early - you've just become a mother. Things will change.
ReplyDeleteBut...get your bills paid and begin to pay cash. Sacrifice eating out, pretty clothes, shoes, the new car, whatever. Live frugally. Build the savings account. Being a stay-at-home mom might happen. It has its benefits.
Hang in there, blessings, and best wishes.
Loved your posts!
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